Week in a flash:
Man where did the week go? One minute its Monday the next it's Friday. I was so busy this week that I barely had time to think, plus I was in a lot of physical pain this week so I pretty much would come home and crash due to my lovely pain meds.
Any how, what's new? How's my life you maybe asking? Well over all everything is pretty much the same give or take. Cleaners came yesterday so it's so nice to come home to a clean house and no dust. I love that lady, she's the best. It really is the best 60.00 I've ever spent.
Mon, and Thur I was in training for work so I got to sleep in until 7am which was awesome. I could of slept in longer if it wasn't for Dominic, but someone has to make sure he's up and off to school. So that was pretty nice, not having to go to work and just do training. The first one was on health and I think it was a waste of my time being that I'm not allowed to even know half the stuff due to the Hepa law. Man, when I was in the hospital and I had to deal with that new law I was so pissed and wanted the nurses, doctors, corpsman anyone just to give out my information. I mean I was so drugged up and really out of my mind and I needed to get my husband off the freaking submarine and no one would help me because legally only I was allowed to give the info and nothing could be done over the phone. Well hello I'm in CA and he's in CT or playing under the sea with the mermaids how else am I going to get the info to him? It really was a pain in the ass. But now working in a school, I think I understand a little bit more and if for some reason my son had to take medication or had an issue I'm not so sure I want just anyone knowing that. It really isn't any ones business other than the people he deals with on a daily basis; such as the nurse, teacher, principal and what not. I'm not sue I'd want some aide that works 3 hours a day (Which is me) knowing all my son business. So I can see why I am not allowed to view that part but why the heck did they send me to the course? Trust me I'm not complaining I just wonder if they truly know what they sign you up for when they sign you up for training. I don't care it was interesting and I had good valid questions but I think I may have been more useful at the school site verses this training. Now the other training was on enrollment, and that was very helpful. Although I'm not the enrollment clerk and she does get paid more than me so I should complain about that but our school is so small we all do each others jobs. That training did help me and once I've done the whole training I should be able to enroll a student if need be. That was a long one and is a 3 part course but it was very helpful.
I also went to see Dr. Alwa my new alternative doctor on Wed. and she said all the parasites I had are gone and my Candina is half way gone. So that I showed drastic improvement in just a week. I still have Candina in my chest and throat area and that is probably why I cough and have chest pain but anything below my boobs is all cleared up. So she was very happy and so was I. She also actually said since I did show such a big change that I could have one serving each of dairy, and fruit added to my diet a day. So I was THRILLED about that. I really missed my fruit. Dr. Alwa would just me prefer eating more protean and veggies and less sugar rather its natural or not. She did increase my pills or one of them she increased and added a new one but I'm been on the new dose and haven't had any bad side effects as of yet. (Knock on wood). She also asked me a series of questions this time ranging from do you think you go to the bathroom normally (enough ) or not, to do you ever experience anxiety or depression or obsessed behaviors. I wasn't sure if I should be honest or not but I decided to be honest and tell her the truth. I mean she is very easy to talk to and she seems to really care. I mean she called me twice last week just to check up on me. I mean what doctor does that? Not any I'm come across so far. So for the first time I admitted to someone other than my blog (you all who read this) and my husband all my fears and obsessive tendencies like praying to live 5 or 6 times a day, fear of dying , panic attacks, worrying when its going to happen and how. Will I hurt anyone if I die outside my house like if I'm driving and what not. All these things I've already expressed to you, you don't need me repeating it. And she sincerely looked at me, and said I can totally understand why you have all this fear and depression, you are dealing with a monster and you are only 33. Then she said "Lets get the Candina under control first and then we will work on all your fears and depression. One thing at a time but the Candina is the most important right now." It felt good to tell a doctor all though I was hesitant at first. I don't want them thinking I'm crazy because I stress about my death all the time. I tell you it's the doctors fault for giving you a time frame. I really wish they wouldn't do that. It sucks because you always have that stuck in your head. ALWAYS!!!!!
So last night I wake up from a dream about turtles. Turtles huh? Yeah I thought the same thing, so I went to my nifty little dream site and looked up the meaning of a dream about turtles and it says this; " Turtle- To see turtles in your dream, suggests that you will make slow but steady progress. You need to slow down and pace yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are sheltering yourself from the realities of life." I find that funny being that we just had this talk on Wednesday about taking steps to get there (a better (the best I can get) life for me).
I also had a celebrity dream the other day and I'm going to kick myself in the butt for not writing it down because I'm 2 for 2 on those. I told my mom and Michael that for now on I was going to write down these dreams and see if they come true and I had one the other day and I can't think of who or what at this current time. Damn it!!! I know I'm going to hear it on the news and I'm going to be like "I just dreamt that." Oh my 2 for 2 were. 1) I had a dream that Brad Pitt broke up with Jennifer for Angelina while making Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Then like a week later the news aired they did break up. And my second one is a little more twisted and no proof yet but the rumor is out there. I had a dream that Anna Nicole SONS was the father of the baby girl and that he got so screwed up in the head that is why he killed or OD on drugs. Then she felt so sick by her incest that she got depressed and ended up doing the same thing. That is why she was so determined to be buried in the Bahamas and even said "I might as well die now and be buried next to him." I mean she already had her dress picked out and a lot, who does that unless you are already thinking about it? So a few weeks ago I tell my mom that I think her son if the father and explain my reasoning and my mom was like "Oh Carmen that's terrible. Blah Blah Blah," and not 2 days later the news says that there are rumors that her son as well as a few other people are in question for being the babies daddy. See I'm good huh? Man I wish that I could just remember what I dreamt the other day then I'd be set. Right now the only thing coming to mind is a black couple or a black woman but I can't remember who or what. I guess I just need to sleep on it. Yeah that sounds good and maybe then it'll come to me again.
OK this entry has become huge. But I guess if I wait until a week to write in here then that is what happens. OK if my celebrity news comes to me I will write it down this time. Oh one more thing, I found out that I can wear my sons size 18 pants today. LOL!!! Well they are gym pants I don't think I could wear a pair of 18 jeans but he didn't like them because they were "too green" in his eyes so I said well I'm not going to throw them away I'll give them to someone, and then I said hell let me see if my big legs can fit in them and surprisingly they did. And the good news is the length is perfect.
So I have come to the conclusion that 1) I'm not as smart as a 5Th grader (have you seen that show yet) but I did beat all the adults on there. and 2) I am as short or tall depending who you ask as a 5Th grader.
Until later,
Carmen
Any how, what's new? How's my life you maybe asking? Well over all everything is pretty much the same give or take. Cleaners came yesterday so it's so nice to come home to a clean house and no dust. I love that lady, she's the best. It really is the best 60.00 I've ever spent.
Mon, and Thur I was in training for work so I got to sleep in until 7am which was awesome. I could of slept in longer if it wasn't for Dominic, but someone has to make sure he's up and off to school. So that was pretty nice, not having to go to work and just do training. The first one was on health and I think it was a waste of my time being that I'm not allowed to even know half the stuff due to the Hepa law. Man, when I was in the hospital and I had to deal with that new law I was so pissed and wanted the nurses, doctors, corpsman anyone just to give out my information. I mean I was so drugged up and really out of my mind and I needed to get my husband off the freaking submarine and no one would help me because legally only I was allowed to give the info and nothing could be done over the phone. Well hello I'm in CA and he's in CT or playing under the sea with the mermaids how else am I going to get the info to him? It really was a pain in the ass. But now working in a school, I think I understand a little bit more and if for some reason my son had to take medication or had an issue I'm not so sure I want just anyone knowing that. It really isn't any ones business other than the people he deals with on a daily basis; such as the nurse, teacher, principal and what not. I'm not sue I'd want some aide that works 3 hours a day (Which is me) knowing all my son business. So I can see why I am not allowed to view that part but why the heck did they send me to the course? Trust me I'm not complaining I just wonder if they truly know what they sign you up for when they sign you up for training. I don't care it was interesting and I had good valid questions but I think I may have been more useful at the school site verses this training. Now the other training was on enrollment, and that was very helpful. Although I'm not the enrollment clerk and she does get paid more than me so I should complain about that but our school is so small we all do each others jobs. That training did help me and once I've done the whole training I should be able to enroll a student if need be. That was a long one and is a 3 part course but it was very helpful.
I also went to see Dr. Alwa my new alternative doctor on Wed. and she said all the parasites I had are gone and my Candina is half way gone. So that I showed drastic improvement in just a week. I still have Candina in my chest and throat area and that is probably why I cough and have chest pain but anything below my boobs is all cleared up. So she was very happy and so was I. She also actually said since I did show such a big change that I could have one serving each of dairy, and fruit added to my diet a day. So I was THRILLED about that. I really missed my fruit. Dr. Alwa would just me prefer eating more protean and veggies and less sugar rather its natural or not. She did increase my pills or one of them she increased and added a new one but I'm been on the new dose and haven't had any bad side effects as of yet. (Knock on wood). She also asked me a series of questions this time ranging from do you think you go to the bathroom normally (enough ) or not, to do you ever experience anxiety or depression or obsessed behaviors. I wasn't sure if I should be honest or not but I decided to be honest and tell her the truth. I mean she is very easy to talk to and she seems to really care. I mean she called me twice last week just to check up on me. I mean what doctor does that? Not any I'm come across so far. So for the first time I admitted to someone other than my blog (you all who read this) and my husband all my fears and obsessive tendencies like praying to live 5 or 6 times a day, fear of dying , panic attacks, worrying when its going to happen and how. Will I hurt anyone if I die outside my house like if I'm driving and what not. All these things I've already expressed to you, you don't need me repeating it. And she sincerely looked at me, and said I can totally understand why you have all this fear and depression, you are dealing with a monster and you are only 33. Then she said "Lets get the Candina under control first and then we will work on all your fears and depression. One thing at a time but the Candina is the most important right now." It felt good to tell a doctor all though I was hesitant at first. I don't want them thinking I'm crazy because I stress about my death all the time. I tell you it's the doctors fault for giving you a time frame. I really wish they wouldn't do that. It sucks because you always have that stuck in your head. ALWAYS!!!!!
So last night I wake up from a dream about turtles. Turtles huh? Yeah I thought the same thing, so I went to my nifty little dream site and looked up the meaning of a dream about turtles and it says this; " Turtle- To see turtles in your dream, suggests that you will make slow but steady progress. You need to slow down and pace yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are sheltering yourself from the realities of life." I find that funny being that we just had this talk on Wednesday about taking steps to get there (a better (the best I can get) life for me).
I also had a celebrity dream the other day and I'm going to kick myself in the butt for not writing it down because I'm 2 for 2 on those. I told my mom and Michael that for now on I was going to write down these dreams and see if they come true and I had one the other day and I can't think of who or what at this current time. Damn it!!! I know I'm going to hear it on the news and I'm going to be like "I just dreamt that." Oh my 2 for 2 were. 1) I had a dream that Brad Pitt broke up with Jennifer for Angelina while making Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Then like a week later the news aired they did break up. And my second one is a little more twisted and no proof yet but the rumor is out there. I had a dream that Anna Nicole SONS was the father of the baby girl and that he got so screwed up in the head that is why he killed or OD on drugs. Then she felt so sick by her incest that she got depressed and ended up doing the same thing. That is why she was so determined to be buried in the Bahamas and even said "I might as well die now and be buried next to him." I mean she already had her dress picked out and a lot, who does that unless you are already thinking about it? So a few weeks ago I tell my mom that I think her son if the father and explain my reasoning and my mom was like "Oh Carmen that's terrible. Blah Blah Blah," and not 2 days later the news says that there are rumors that her son as well as a few other people are in question for being the babies daddy. See I'm good huh? Man I wish that I could just remember what I dreamt the other day then I'd be set. Right now the only thing coming to mind is a black couple or a black woman but I can't remember who or what. I guess I just need to sleep on it. Yeah that sounds good and maybe then it'll come to me again.
OK this entry has become huge. But I guess if I wait until a week to write in here then that is what happens. OK if my celebrity news comes to me I will write it down this time. Oh one more thing, I found out that I can wear my sons size 18 pants today. LOL!!! Well they are gym pants I don't think I could wear a pair of 18 jeans but he didn't like them because they were "too green" in his eyes so I said well I'm not going to throw them away I'll give them to someone, and then I said hell let me see if my big legs can fit in them and surprisingly they did. And the good news is the length is perfect.
So I have come to the conclusion that 1) I'm not as smart as a 5Th grader (have you seen that show yet) but I did beat all the adults on there. and 2) I am as short or tall depending who you ask as a 5Th grader.
Until later,
Carmen
Three things I'm happy for:
- It being Friday.
- Feeling good today, not tired and not too winded.
- Dreams because they make life more fun.
posted by Carmen San Diego @ 11:51 AM
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