Life can really suck at times

Having a lung disease sucks. I hate it and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Today I am sick in bed and pray that God will give me a miracle and take this horrible disease away from me. I hate life when I'm sick and wish that I could just do something to take away my pain. Life isn't suppose to be so hard, physically. If I could have just one wish it'd be for these scarred lungs to be good, new again and to be able to enjoy life to its fullest. I'm only 32 and feel like I'm 82. Life should not be like this. I'm usually in good spirits and positive about my disease but days like this when I can't even get out of bed, its scary and brings me down. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. I don't wish this on anyone. It sucks so bad to have to try and get in a good breath. Tomorrow I go to the doctors and I am praying that he puts me on O2 because I think at this point I need it or atleast need ii on hand for times like this.

Until I can think of something else to write,
Carmen San Diego