just my luck

I just wanted everyone to know that my doctor once again canceled my appointment to speak to him regarding the transplant. He hasn't rescheduled the appointment but I will let everyone know as soon as I can. I'm pretty upset about the whole thing and just wanted to let people know now before anyone starts emailing/calling me wondering how it went. This whole process has been extremely hard both physical and especially emotional for me and of course Michael and Dominic who have to deal with it on a daily basis. Then calling a hour before my appointment I think just tip my emotions over and I had a hard time calming myself down. I cried (a lot and then cried a lot more) but am all out of tears now and simply have to try and pick myself back up and wait yet longer to speak to Dr. Yung. So I will keep everyone posted on when he reschedules but at this time I just really don't want to have to talk to anyone about it or have to tell everyone I'm ok. I'm not ok at the moment but will get over this as I normally do. Again, I'll be all right, I'm just let down and worry that Dr. Yung is putting me on the back burner. Will contact you all in due time. Thanks in advance for not calling and emailing me for now.

3 things I'm happy for:
truthfully it has taken me a long time to think of something to write here because I am so disappointment but I've come up with 3 after all. 1. My husband because he helps me get back on my feet with I'm down like this. 2. God, because I know everything happens for a reason rather I want to admit to it or not. 3. my son for giving me the hug I needed so badly earlier after the doctors office called. He had to be told by Mike to hug me but he did anyway and it felt really good.